having a bad day

it started yesterday when i was kinda hurt because of something emily said to me abut not going to my play. it kinda hurt cause i am here working hard to earn money just to see her and a couple of my other friends in the play. i started thinking and i was feeling as if she wasnt really my friends ne more. so i talked to danielle about it and some how emily found out the next day [today] and yelled at me because she said i was talking about her behind her back. i regreted everything i said the night before and i told danielle that but i guess no one believed me and they told emily and now she is mad at me. i tried so hard to work things out with her but she was either ignoring me or curisin at me. it got me to rreally ruin my day but besides that. my mom read the email from my friend kaitlyn about how its wrong that me and her should be friends anymore because of that stupid thing that happened last year and she gave me a speech about how her parents are irresonsible and i still might not be able to see her still. it sucks that you cant see your best friend and it sucks even more when your other best friend is ticked off at you. maybe i should just keep my feelings to my slef because everytime i say something it causes drama. and its not my fault either. emily is someone who will fight no matter wat even if it is her fault lol. she is an awesome friend and i hope we could work things out and everyting will be back to normal but it is hard with her. ou have to bust down a brick wall first before u can finally get to her. another thing is i want to try to be friends with rena again. im also regretting wat i said about her and i am hoping my friend will try to fix the hole we built between our friendship a few years back,. im trying to change and be a better friend then i am because to me it doesnt look like im being a good friend